Fairy Tale Christian - Part I

Did you develop a relationship with God for the right reasons?

That is a question that all of us at one point or another will ask ourselves in our walk. Why? Because for some of us we will be tested in fiery trials that will make us wonder if it is worth giving our lives to Jesus Christ. I mean lets, be real most of us came to God because things in our lives were not going the way we wanted. We were living outside of God’s will doing what we wanted, when we wanted and how we wanted and for a while it was working. But at some point, all (you know what) started to break loose and God’s word will perform: Galatians 6:7-9 “Be not deceived: God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he reap. For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the spirit shall of the Spirit reap everlasting life.

Now for those who came to God because they were raised in the church or just submitted to God naturally this does not apply to you.

But if you were like me that’s not how you came into this walk. I was like most people doing my thing, although I believed in God, I lived with my grandmother in the south and was raised up in a Baptist church from 6 years old to 11 years old…. So even though I had an introduction to Jesus  the older I became the more distant I became with God, I mean life was good ,things were going well so  you know I would say the little perfunctory prayer when I felt the need but God was more like an afterthought I knew he was there and when I needed him I would call but otherwise I went on doing as I pleased.

My thought at the time …. (the enemy had my mind in a vice grip for so long) I was going to live MY life the way I wanted, I had only had one life to live and since my childhood was not the best … I used that excuse to indulge myself from a child to a grown woman. Proverbs 21:2 Everyway of a man is right in his own eyes, but the Lord weighs the hearts. So, I justified all the sin, anger, bad behavior, abuse and over all messy state of my life on a “boldface lie” as the old folk used to say.

But what happens when the sin ain’t feeling as good as it used to, when it’s starting to cost you-peace, health, money, opportunities, your freedom, when it affects the ones you love, when you look in the mirror and just feel disgusted with yourself, or the moment when you realize your past the point of control and now its controlling you. This is usually the point (for some of us) some must hit the bottom, like middle earth and (its ok this was the type of learner I was, I had to go past the point of no return to learn) anyway , where we start to search for a Way Out - For Help- for something or someone to save us.

For me -? My savior, my help, the one who could solve all my problems was God. I remembered the tingles I would get as a little girl in church, singing in the church choir, the easter dresses etc. Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go and he will not depart from it.” So, when life blew up, everything from the job to the marriage, the kids, my health all at one time and I looked around and I was on some De La Soul (little throw back from the 90's ) me myself and I stuff?? I ran to the one I knew would solve all my problems and would never turn against me.

What I did not account for??  

I had done a lot of things since I was that little girl in the church, had opened doors that would not just magically close, had strongholds in my mind that dictated my every though and action and even though Jesus redeemed me, God allowed me to come despite my shame, and I was beginning to open my heart, eyes, and ears Holy Spirit …. The real battle was just starting and the fairytale I created in my mind (the magically problems solved overnight, the church glow, God is going to do it all, and I will just sit pretty) was quickly replaced with terrifying warfare …..

Thank you for reading and being a part of this testimony. “Revelation 12:11 And they overcame the enemy by the blood of the lamb and by the word of our testimony and loved not their lives unto death.”

 My one hope is that through my testimony someone is encouraged, increases in the spirit of discernment, is delivered from every trap the enemy sets, step into the authority Jesus sacrificed his life for and be reminded you are not the only one!

IT IS TAKE BACK SEASON!!!! Check Out the Next Article:  Fairytale Christian Walk -Part II